I got my first ever Brazilian wax. It REALLY hurt. And I mean… REALLY. Remember the little bushy part I had on the top middle? Yeah… that part ripping off my body caused me to look like I was going through an exorcism on the table. The profanity I spewed at this tiny Cuban woman is unforgivable and unrepeatable.
To top it off, she TWEEZED the straggler hairs. Tweezed. Have you tried to tweeze your pubes?! 😭
So yeah, my next one is scheduled for January. I have to grow a full bush before waxing so I’ll be rotating between bald and bushy. I’m sure that will please you guys since some of you love bald and others like bushier. 😇
(EX WANTS TO GET BACK TOGETHER)
Your ex wanted you to come over for a chat. She confesses to wanting you and thinking about all the sex you two used to have together. Just talking about it makes you hard and she couldn't help but press you back and put your boner into her mouth. Maybe one more time wouldn't hurt...
I said yes to hang with a few girls and go to a male strip show on Friday. I was told there would be no penis shown, but they got mega muscles so at least there's something hard I can look at! 😭
I've also been wrapping up the school term and luckily, I'm ahead of the game on all the schoolwork. I've already planned out a bunch of new shoots to be done before Christmas and there will be a good variety of content being made. I've been working out a lot, but I recorded one of my major lifts and I had mixed feelings on it. I lifted a lot more than I thought I could and I had perfect form, but I just have this belly fat that won't quit. I'm at a point in my fitness journey where I look strong and got good muscle, but the fat just wants to stick around. I've been cleaning up my diet a bit more and focusing on including gut healthy foods and stuff. I have a tenancy to bloat most of the month and it messes with my body dismorphia when one week I look snatched and fit, but the two weeks after that I'm very bloated. Maybe swapping out more sodas for water wouldn't hurt? lmao.
You'll see what I mean in my pics! It drives me crazy having IBS because I either have to eat perfectly clean or end up looking like Nickado Avocado. No in between!
(SYBIAN REVIEW)
Welp, I finally tried out the sybian sex toy! It took a minute to get used to it, but it felt really good and the edging was top notch! 🥵
I got a sybian and I'm so eager to use it! I bet it can make me cum really hard and I love how I can ride it. I love riding so it's the perfect toy for me. I'm going to record it as a "toy review" video since I'm sure people are eager to know if it's actually as good as people say it is.
School is kicking my butt this week. I'm writing a synthesis on discourse communities so...yay me! Hey, maybe I should write about OF since it technically fitting into that category 🤣.
I tried playing dnd and it's safe to say that I enjoy it. I always thought dnd was for nerds, but I'm learning that dnd is actually a game for jocks who want to pretend they're nerdy! 😜 The real nerd games are Warhammer, Magic the Gathering, etc. I played dnd for a total of 25 hours before we won the campaign. I decided that we should only get together once a week and time block it. So 4-6 hours on Sunday is dnd day. No more than that. I can't spend that amount of time away from my responsibilities and then start the next day exhausted and unfocused. Everything in moderation, I suppose. Now I really want to invest in some dice.
I've been reflecting on how far I've come with my education. It was hard convincing the university to allow me in. I applied and wrote a cover letter. I even called a million times to follow up. I had to explain to them why I had a GED from the state that no longer requires students to be proficient in reading, writing and math to graduate. I also had a 1.0 GPA in college too... I felt so humiliated having to explain that I didn't care and didn't want to apply myself at the time and that's why I had nothing but F's. I had to tell them that I can do absolutely ANYTHING I want to and always succeed when I decide to. I showed them my track record of success and independence and told them I WILL excel in their school. They then accepted me and I have been keeping straight A's ever since. A+ in some courses. I feel that I have something to prove now since I was such a failure in my past. I never kept a job, applied myself in school, or committed to any relationship. I sit here today and look back at the fact that all I was missing was the ability to trust my own instincts. Once I did that, everything changed for me. I wish I saw my potential sooner and I wish that those old feelings didn't come up as often as they do. It took a lot to push past all the thoughts running in my head when I applied for college. Like, "you're too old", "what makes you think you'll be able to succeed at this when you failed epically every time before?", etc. If you guys are struggling with something due to confidence or fear of failure, don't let it hinder you.
Sometimes, the most healing thing you can do for yourself is to win in the places where you've lost.
(ROUGH, SQUIRTING SEX WITH SGT. MILES)
I know this scene will be a shock coming from me, but I really hope you end up loving it! 🥹
Duration: 23:27
Price to Unlock: $75 *in dms*
Release Date: Black Friday at 12am
I started watching *demon slayer*. It's the first anime I ever tried to watch and it seems okay. A little over the top sometimes and the yelling gets kind of annoying. I have to be in a certain type of mood to stand it, but at least I'm giving it a shot.
My hubby is nerdy as hell and I'm not. We joke all the time about me being the jock and him being the nerd. I lift weights, he doesn't. I like crime shows, he prefers anime. He uses discord, I prefer instagram. I'm more extraverted, he prefers to talk to his friends online. He loves to game, I prefer to work. All his friends are introverted gamers and all mine are caffeine addicted, work focused hustlers. If you were to look at his desk, it has figurines, game controllers, doordash bags and a million charge cords. You look over at mine and all you see are spiral notebooks, trophies, inspirational photos and a whiteboard with all my goals/milestones.
So, I'm being more open to the things he is interested in. Giving anime a try is one of those things. I don't think I can ever wrap my head around something like Warhammer though! Maybe I'll get into some of the animes and even be one of those people who attend comic con one day! 🤷♀️
It's exhausting to sift through endless comments about how fat I am, how ugly I am. The comments about my home, my husband, my clothes. Everything under the sun. If I complain about it, I get slapped back with the oh so original "you opened yourself up to it by being a pornstar."
Although I believe some part of that is true, that doesn't mean it's suddenly okay to be someone who is relentlessly cruel to others. Being that the free porn sites are the worst about this, I would have no problem shutting down my free content pages if I had more marketing outlets. After almost 7 years of creating porn, I think I'm hitting my limit on ignoring the constant judgements. I'm human and I can only ignore something so much before one day I wonder "maybe they're right."
(HE CREAMPIED MY WET PUSSY)
I was so horny and creamy. He loved the feeling of my wet mouth wrapped around his cock before he moved my panties to the side and slipping his cock deep inside me. I let him fuck me good and hard before he dumped his load into my pulsating cunt.
I realized that I NEED to buy "guest" towels. Like, I need mini bottles of shampoo and soaps as well as wipes, rags, lubes and breathe mints! If I'm going to be shooting with others a bit more often, I need to accommodate that. You'd be shocked by how many towels and wipes we go through in a day! I felt super bad when I got done with a scene and it wasn't until after my costar took the shower that I realized I had no more clean towels. The poor soul had to just stand there and air dry. Arms spread out wide and everything! 😭 As a side note, my new house has those gross, yellow lightbulbs. It's the absolute worst to shoot content with that damn yellow lighting. Makes me look like I have jaundice or something. If I replace those bulbs with white, it can't be too bright or else it'll leave shadows over all the important bits when shooting. 😩
I have a whole drawer dedicated to porn necessities now. I have lube, make up remover wipes, douches, combs, mint gum, hand sanitizer, etc. Somehow I forgot extra towels though 😹.
If you guys haven't seen it already, you'll begin noticing a larger variety in my content as I begin including my *very small* circle of industry friends into my scenes. I even shot something this weekend that I've never shot before. The only hint I'll give you is that it's my roughest scene to date and that it's with someone I've shot a good amount of non-penetrative scenes with in the past. 🤫 🤐
*I know I don't usually post anything besides photos and videos, but I feel that part of having an onlyfans is to also allow you guys to get to know me more than you would through a typical social media platform.
With that being said, I'd like to make more posts like this where I'm simply posting to post. So let me give you a general, overall update.*
I'm so glad I have been able to relocate. I'm happy I have a small house again. I love how the home has a fenced in yard. The neighbors are annoying as hell. Someone plays the drums all day, every single day and I can hear it in the house. It literally doesn't stop. I've been moaning to the beat in my content 🤣. Kinda like trying to cough to cover up a fart. Wouldn't change a thing though. Life is quirky like that! I'm a bit nervous to shoot a lot of content in it. Like, I don't want the fact my house looks like a "downgrade" to impact the quality of the scenes I'll be shooting. I love my home so much and plastering it all over the internet can be hard since it's my personal space and it's open for the judgement of others.
Also, I've been working out 4-6 times a week again! Now that I can access a crossfit gym, I have been able to get back into the swing of things and I finally feel like myself. I love it so much. I can't explain why crossfit specifically, because every single thing about it feels like home to me. Even on days where I suck or don't feel very strong. I still feel like I'm made for it and it's something that's RIGHT for me.
If you guys didn't know, I'm in school for exercise science. That's right! I shoot porn AND do school full time. I'm going a bit crazy trying to balance it all out, especially when I was relocating. It's all worth it though! I love to learn new things and I like being challenged.
But yeah! That's my update so far! Future posts will be much shorter than this, but I thought I'd actually update you guys and tell you some actual stuff about me.
ILY, bye! 💜
(SQUIRTING ORGASM WITH BUTT PLUG)
Pov: We got back from lunch and I strip tease for you, revealing by big tits and ass. I bend over to show you my gem butt plug. I want you to stroke your cock for me as you watch me touch myself...💦
(PAIGE AND GRACIE'S EPIC SEX TAPE)
Gracie and I wanted to show off our big asses and creamy pussy's for you guys. I made sure to rim her sweet asshole before putting on my strap and making her cum *really* hard!
We masturbated side by side and ended up cumming and squirting at the same exact time 🥵
